What was

I did not have a crazy scheduled packed or wild life before I had my son. Cuddling on the couch and watching a movie was considered a date, which I love. Once a month we headed out for dinner and a movie or some kind of adventure. Our weekends were spent sleeping in and being with each other every moment. Looking back I cherish the simplicity, closeness and sleep.

Things are a little different now. Things are not simple, there is lack of sleep, but we do get lots of hugs and cuddles. There was a long and high slope to adjust to when you add a person into your family.

Things are not the same. There are moments that are not better and I long for the past, but I couldn't or wouldn't want to replace my baby boy. The first 4 months were the hardest. Adjusting to motherhood, nursing and missing that closeness with my husband. I started to wonder if I was cut out for being a Mum.
Shouldn't Mum's have some sort of qualifications before they bring home a baby?!
I felt ill prepared for the responsibility and reality that this little baby depended on me 24/7. After my little guy hit 4 months, we had finally found our stride.

I started to really feel confident with nursing and I liked saying, "I have a son". The joy of being a Mum was and is now present in my soul. We have our bad moments, nights and days, but together we are growing and learning.

What was is to be remembered, what is...pure joy.